‘I know you enjoy being single and all, but don’t you miss love?’
She looked at me with judgemental eyes that were way easier to read than she probably wanted them to be.
‘Who says I don’t have love?’
When did not being in a relationship automatically become the same as lonely and without love? Just because I don’t share my rent with another person, suddenly I have no love in my life?
What a load of bullshit!
I’ve been single for almost a year now, and during that period of time I’ve met some amazing people. I’ve shared time and love with both men and women. Some are still in my life and some not. But they all have one thing in common; They’ve added something new to my life. They’ve helped me grow as a person. And through getting to know them, I also got to know myself a little better.
I have people in my life who’ve been there for many years. Friends I can’t even picture my life without. My best friends are my soulmates. The ones that I call when I need a shoulder to cry on, someone to laugh with or just to be distracted from my own thoughts. They are part of my roots, and no matter how far my lives branches stretch, they will always be connected to the those exact roots. Sometimes branches snap, but that doesn’t mean that they’re permanently broken. Over time a new branch will grow, and it will take a different shape than it had the last time around, but will still carry forth the most amazing leaves.
Some people didn’t stay around for that long. Some because they didn’t want to. Some because they couldn’t. I still love and miss them all. Because love is so much more than sharing your bed and your bills. Love is about connecting with people. It’s about growth and about being present.
Have I gotten my heart broken? Sure! Many times. Do I still love them? Absolutely!
The love might not be the same as it was, but it still lingers, like a distant memory. Because even if our relationship might change, it still contributed to my life and to the way that I love.
The beauty of cracks in a big heart is that even though it might bleed, the sunshine and warmth have more openings to enter through. I choose to be grateful for the love that I’ve experienced.
We fear the word love for being something that changes everything, but should we? It’s been a long time since I feared the word love. Maybe I just love differently? Maybe it’s because I don’t believe in love being reserved for “the one”?
I like to say that I have too much love to give, for me to sit around and wait for one recipient. Because it’s better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all!
So to all of you wonderful people who’ve made my life to what it is today:
I love you!
Publisher: Simon & Schuster Ltd.
Published: October 9th, 2014
Pages: 432 (hardback edition)
Audiobook length: 11 hrs and 6 mins
Synopsis by the publisher:
When a beautiful, aspiring writer strides into the East Village bookstore where Joe Goldberg works, he does what anyone would do: he Googles the name on her credit card.
There is only one Guinevere Beck in New York City. She has a public Facebook account and Tweets incessantly, telling Joe everything he needs to know: she is simply Beck to her friends, she went to Brown University, she lives on Bank Street, and she’ll be at a bar in Brooklyn tonight—the perfect place for a “chance” meeting.
As Joe invisibly and obsessively takes control of Beck’s life, he orchestrates a series of events to ensure Beck finds herself in his waiting arms. Moving from stalker to boyfriend, Joe transforms himself into Beck’s perfect man, all while quietly removing the obstacles that stand in their way—even if it means murder.
"You mesmerised me and scared me at the same time. One of the scariest things about this novel, is how it points out just how easily accessible all of our private information really is to anyone who's looking for it."
I was intrigued by the premise of this novel from the time it started to frequently appear on BookTube, a little over a year ago. I had it on my to-read list for a long time, and sort of forgot about it. Then I was asked by a fellow BookTuber if I wanted to buddy read it with him, and it had once again sparked my interest. I didn’t get my hands on a copy before my buddy had already finished his, so I was a bit late to the party once again. Better late than never though, and this is one party you don’t want to miss out on!
The story is written in a first person narrative through the character Joe. What was interesting about reading from the perspective of a stalker like Joe, is to see just how easily he justifies every move he makes. It’s such a wonderful and horrendous experience to be inside the mind of the bad guy!
Both Joe and Beck made for very interesting and relatable characters. None were too polished or unrealistic, and the friends that surrounded Beck (and made things difficult for Joe) made it all even more interesting.
You mesmerised me and scared me at the same time. One of the scariest things
about this novel, is how it points out just how easily accessible all of our
private information really is to anyone who’s looking for it. Makes you think about what it is that you actually want to share on today’s social media.
It was a very suspenseful ride, and one that I will not forget. Going into this, I was certain that this was a stand alone novel, but I’ve come to know that it is actually the first part of a series. The second book (Hidden Bodies) was published February 2016. I will be picking this one up sometime in 2017. Can’t wait to see what happens next!
That being said, You can easily be read as if it was a stand alone novel. It is just bloody brilliant in my opinion!
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About eight years ago I laid my eyes on a very talented man. His voice had this magical way of waking up emotions in me and I knew that his voice had somewhat changed my life.
And the rest is history!
Well.. Sort of..
After that day there’s been countless hours of listening. There’s been a trip to London, just to see him. And there’s been a lot of waiting.
I’m talking about my love for Jason Mraz and his wonderful music. His music has been such a big part of my life for the last eight years. I’ve laughed, cried and wondered with his voice being a present in the background. I’ve waiting and hoping for one of his tours to bring him back to Norway so that I could see another one of his concerts. It took long enough, that’s for sure. So long that I had to jump on a plane to London a few years back, so that I wouldn’t miss out on his Yes! Tour with Raining Jane. It was so worth the trip by the way!
But my wish came true. A little while ago a Scandinavian tour was announced and I knew that I had to be there!
So Kirsti, her boyfriend and I got tickets and made a night out of it! Sunday came and we got dressed up and went for a few beers and laughs before the concert.
And then it was time!
We got good seats and when the room darkened, Jason got on stage and the music began, I was lost in emotions! He started off with a new song (that annoyingly enough hasn’t come out yet, and now I can’t get it out of my head) and it was so beautiful! There was a wonderful atmosphere in the room, and even though there were some songs that I missed hearing, it was still a night of musical magic! I laughed, I cried and walked out of there with a big smile on my face and my heart filled with love!
What a wonderful night! I’m so grateful that I had the opportunity to experience yet another amazing concert with one of my all time favorite artists, and that I got to share it with wonderful people! ❤
It was well worth the wait, but I really do hope we don’t have to wait as long for his next performance in Oslo 🙂