Yesterday I got a couple of photos from my shoot with Rune Hartvigsen done in November and today I’m sharing one of them with you! Those of you who follow me on Facebook have probably already seen it 🙂
I’m very happy with the result and I absolutely love working with this guy!
Boys and girls and geeks of all ages!! A new video has been released by Shots of Awe and it’s just as gorgeous as the others!
How often do you find yourself transfixed by beauty? I feel incredibly lucky to be able to find beauty in the weirdest things in this world. I use a lot of these moments in my writing. To be able to look at the things that might seem ordinary to a lot of people can be the most beautiful and amazing things.
To watch the details in a snowflake can bring tears to my eyes and make me all warm and fuzzy. This world that we live in, the life that we lead is such an amazing thing.
We’re not always happy and it’s not always sunshine and rainbows but in sorrow and hard times there is also a kind of beauty. It’s about how we choose to see life and to live it.
There are so many things that we choose to worry about that are in so many ways meaningless. Yes! I wrote choose, not because I think that we want to worry about these things, but because our mindset isn’t right. We tend to focus on the problems that life can bring instead of all the joys it offers. I’ve thought a lot about this the last couple of days and there are way too many worries to put them all into one post, but let’s set things straight with a few of them.
What if he/she doesn’t like me for who I really am?
I’m guessing most of us have thought just that at some time or another in our lives. We’ve met that special someone that spellbinds us and we so desperately wants to be the person that they want so we choose to alter the way that we act, dress or do things. We adapt ourselves to a potential partner for a potential that (when you really look at it) doesn’t exist at all, even though we want it to.
The simple truth is this: If he or she doesn’t like you for who you are, then you two aren’t meant to be together! It really is as simple as that!!
But I know that love is a little devil that likes to take us on a rollercoaster and sometimes surprises you by making it end up in the house of horrors, but we need to try to see things differently even in Cupid’s haze. We talk about looking for love and wanting all these different qualities and for some reason when we find that person that has a lot of them we tend to overlook everything else about that person that might hold all the warning signs and proofs that it wont last. We enter a fairytale state where we are in love with being in love and the reality of it all doesn’t hit us until it’s time to crash and burn.
Be yourself, look for a person that likes you for you and don’t settle for anything else!
I don’t have time to do the things that I love!
So you love singing, writing, photography, making movies, building model airplanes or drawing? You have a passion or a hobby that warms your soul and stimulates you creatively but you just can’t find the time for it?
I’m sorry to burst your bubble, but if you love it that much (same goes for dating and relationships) you make the time!!
Set your priorities right! Turn off the TV, put away your smart phone, decline that party invitation and do the thing you love. I know it can be tough to do this. Some days are long and demanding and when you get home you just want to sit down and watch some crappy TV show, but when you think about it that doesn’t really do much for you, does it? Think of how much joy and excitement you get from doing the things that you love!
Can we agree that the feeling that gives you is a way better ending to a rough day than watching what’s happening in the life of the Kardshian’s?
What if I fail?
You’re going to..
I know that sounds pessimistic, but it really isn’t. Look at all the great names in history and you will see that none of them got to where they were without failing more than once. Failing is a way of seeing the things that we need to change. It’s a motivation to keep on trying and to try even harder.
Everyone will fail and fall down, but does who succeeds are the ones who get up and keeps on going!
Be that person!
I could go on and on and on, but I’m not going to. I think you already get the picture! We need to be the change that we want to see in other people. We need to follow our hearts and not our worries!
Follow the love. The love for what you do. The love for a person loving you as who you are. The love of your goal.
Any kind of love really, as long as it is real true love!
Throughout life I’ve been through several different stages with my personality. For some time as a very young girl I could run up to strangers and talk and talk and talk. I even fell asleep in the laps of an old couple I met on the train once. I only remember bits and pieces of this and can’t say for sure how long it lasted or what it was that happened for it to change. Because it did change. I can remember starting in first grade, all excited and willing to learn anything and everything they threw at me, but this is when my thoughts started to wander. I would find myself staring out of the window. Looking at the wind dancing with the trees, the clouds making faces and the weather changing from sun to rain to snow and back to sun again. I was the the princess of daydreaming, and every student-teacher-parent meeting we went to they always said the same thing:
‘Christina is very smart. She does what she is told and usually gets it right most of the times. She is a very good student, although she should try to raise her hand and give answers out loud more often. Oh, and she has a habit of staring out of the window, daydreaming.’
I guess some things never change. I don’t think I could stop it even if my life depended on it.
I had friends in school, not many but the ones I had were amazing. My dear friend Kirsti has been my best friend from way back then, into the now and I’m guessing to infinity and beyond. But when it was time to switch to high school, my best friend moved and started at another school than mine.
I found a few really good friends at my new school, but those three years are the years where I got pretty shy in many ways. Bullying does that to a person. I wasn’t the worst case, but none the less there were more nights crying in my bed room than it should have been. Good friendships, family and the pen and paper got me through it. A while back I took the time to flip through the notebooks I had back then and it was covered with stories and poems where there should have been math and French. My grades were good and I still liked the learning process, I just wished that I could experience it in an environment where being shy and hold back felt like the best option.
Something changed AGAIN when I got to be about sixteen. The bullying had scarred me but it also built character that I am grateful for today. I started my adventure into adulthood and as for most of us it had its bumps and cracks. Little by little I got to know who I am and who I want to be. I learned how to be comfortable in my own skin and wanting to help others feel the same about them. I found a positive person inside of me that had been hiding in a corner for too long and I nourished her and we grew as one and we are still do! I found the writer in me again and again, but it wasn’t until very recent years that I had the guts to pursue it. I’ve said that I’m going to be a writer since I was around five years old, but this time right here is the time that I finally dare to say;
I’M A WRITER!
Even though my novel isn’t done yet, writing isn’t something that I choose to do anymore. It is something that I have to do!
Going on that journey from sixteen till now there has been a lot of changes, and I’ve met some truly amazing people along the way. I’ve broken out of my shell and I’ve found the pleasure and excitement of challenging myself and all that I know. To go out on adventures and find those tiny or grand things that makes our lives, our short time on this earth so incredibly amazing. I started to label myself as an extrovert.
A while back I read a book called “Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can’t Stop talking” by Susan Cain and how I saw myself changed after this.
Society has taught us that we have to be outgoing extroverts if we want to become anything in life and we take their word for it. We write exactly that about ourselves on our resumes, our dating profile and we tell it to ourselves. But what I discovered reading this book was something completely different.
As I read more in depth about what being an introvert really means I found that I was a perfect fit for a confident introvert. I’m not afraid of talking to strangers, but I always carefully weigh the words that I’m going to say. I like being out and around people at the same time as I love the moments that I have to myself. These are just a couple of many things I recognized in myself while reading this book, and even though I was a little shocked at first I’m very happy about it now.
Did you know that introverts usually are the best leaders? Something to think about, right?
I’m not going to sit here and say that being this or that is better than the other. I know a lot of very extroverted people that I find truly fascinating and amazing, and the same goes for those who are shy introverts as well. It’s not really about labels, it’s about being comfortable in your skin. To know who you are and to love yourself for it!
Hi! My Name is Christina and I am a Confident Introvert!
This is the feeling I’ve been having for the most of this day. Working in an office can be challenging when you’re in a really good place creatively. Suddenly my head is so filled with poetry and the next chapter of my book that I have to concentrate on what to answer when a customer calls.
Suddenly, all the words in my emails are so unimportant. The rational part of my mind tries to calm me down and trying to get me back into the zone of working, and it manages to do so from time to time. But then there’s that other part of me that needs to come out kicking and screaming, telling me that she is ready to conquer the world! This girl puts my fingers and my voice on some kind of autopilot. I’ve answered the same mails many times, answered most of the same questions that comes after the ring of my office phone. I do what is required of me and with a little sprinkle on top. A tiny poem in an email just because I can’t help myself. Making extra conversation with the man coming to pick up his KitchenAid machine because I can tell he needs to talk. He longs for someone to listen as he tells the stories of how things were in the good old days. I find my everyday pleasure right there. In those tiny moments of smile and laughter that is so easily taken for granted. In the ocean of inspiration they might just seem like tiny drops, but lots and lots of tiny drops can surprise you to turn into an ocean you could have never seen coming.
My mind screamed at me ALL day. Giving me fragments of poems I haven’t yet started. I fumbled and grasped my pen or my phone as often as I could to take notes on them. To not forget what does small drops of inspiration brought to me. My mind wanted to fly away on a cloud, put me down on a mountain top with nothing but a couple of pens, a notebook and a magical cup that could present any hot beverage I desired at any given time. I would write and write until my hands got sore, and then I would write some more.
I opened my eyes and found myself staring at the computer screen. Without even noticing I had typed three letters. Because the feeling that I first felt wasn’t really true. Because the I didn’t realize how incredibly lucky I was to be so inspired by those things that can seem meaningless more often than not.
Three letters glowed at me:
And I realized that it doesn’t matter where I am, what kind of job I do or what sort of hot beverage is in my cup. What matters is that even though I’m doing what I have to do, my mind is still finding time to do what I love to do. It takes me on unexpected adventures. Stores ideas and experiences. The voices and faces of people that I get to meet. That girl that dominates my mind, she is what makes this life so amazing no matter the imperfections or failures. She travels with me, but most of all I travel with her. And no matter if it’s scary or wonderful the set destination always looks different, but at the same time it is always the same.
Clint Smith touches on a subject that is increasingly becoming more and more evident. Healthy living shouldn’t be so hard, what we put into our bodies should get some extra thoughts and violence around the world needs to be taken car of. We have a long way ahead of us, cleaning up a mess we didn’t know that we were making.
Let us set new and better examples. For yourself, for me and for all of those to come!
I’ve decided to be more active in the poetry community on Youtube and I’m going to be uploading a lot of poems (something old and something new) and there will be monthly book reviews as well where I will gather up all the reviews I write here into a video.
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