Writer’s Block – POEM

Blank papers and a pen almost dried out

I have so much to write about

But as I put that pen to paper

It’s still as blank an hour later

There’s so much going on, changes I’d like to share

But my searches turn up empty, the right words aren’t there

Maybe those words aren’t ready to be

To come to life as the change that’s changing me

Or maybe it’s me that’s not ready yet

Might be in the need of a hard reset

So I kissed my lost words and sent them away

On winds of dreams to return another day

A few decided to stay behind

Probably so I won’t lose my mind

They wrap themselves around me and together we sit tight

Waiting for the others to return when the timing is right

***

©Christina de Vries – Geek Heaven

I was thinking about not caring…

Well that title makes me sounds like a cynic, but hear me out here. While walking to a writing session today, I had my camera with me and filmed some footage for future vlogs. I’ve been doing that a lot for the last week or so and the more I film, the more I realise how much I love it. And here’s the thing: I live in Norway, and even though I live in the capital where there are so many creative people, most of them will still find you weird and stare at you while you’re filming the train passing by or a pigeon walking in circles. It’s way too easy to feel kind of awkward when this happens, and I’ve definitely been awkward more times than I can count. And I also realised that this sometimes make me hesitate when it comes to pulling out my camera, making me lose that perfect shot.

But today, I just felt so overwhelmed with creativity while out walking and I suddenly found myself not even caring the tiniest of bits who was looking my way while I was sitting down and filming the shoes that passed me by. And guess what! It felt bloody brilliant! I was skipping along with the biggest smile on my face and the camera in front of it. I got a lot of curious looks but why should I even care about that? What difference does it make who stares and what they think? Why are we so afraid of standing out because of our creativity and life choices? It’s been many years since I stopped caring about what people thought about my clothes and my personality, but I hadn’t realised that I still cared about who thought what I was up to was weird! But today I set a stop to it. I’m going to be my kind of creative no matter who stares or who comments about it. My artistic voice is my own, and does who care to listen are more than welcome to do so, and those who doesn’t care for it can leave or look another way. They don’t have to be a part of it in any way.

It’s about time we all stopped compromising our creativity for the sake of other people’s opinions. When it comes so creating something, the only opinion you really need to listen to is your own, and then you can choose who you listen to after that for the right kind of criticism and advice.

Let’s be creative and stop caring so much!

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March 2016 – Wrap Up

I was thinking about enjoying myself…

A while back I had some time to spare between a couple of meetings. What do writers do when they have time to spare? They order coffee and sit down to write of course!

I ordered myself a double soy latte and the barista that served me did not yell “DOUBLE SOY LATTE” when it was done. And he didn’t yell out my name as a Starbucks barista would do. He told me (with the biggest smile) that my coffee was ready, then he really looked me in the eyes and said:

‘Enjoy yourself!’

It might not sound like much, but in the instant those words hit me I thought:

‘Yes! I deserve this! I deserve to indulge myself a little extra and I definitely will! THANK YOU for reminding me!’

***

In this day and age where it too often feels like time stretches too thin, the pressure gets to us all to be better, deliver perfectly, to compete (and win) and find time to everyone and everything, it’s way too easy to forget to slow down , enjoy the moment, to let go and to be mindful.

My life has been changing a lot the past few months, and to say that it’s been hectic would be an understatement for sure. But even though there’s been a lot going on (mostly with work) I’ve learnt a lot from it and really enjoyed every part of it. Getting into new routines, learning new things and facing new challenges. But in the blur of it all, I’ve forgotten to enjoy life as much as I usually do.

I haven’t been as present in those small moments of life that we so easily overlook and see as nothing but life passing by. Boy, how wrong are we to do so?!

Those moments are the ones that are really important to enjoy to the fullest! Those moments put together are what makes up our lives.

So wouldn’t you rather enjoy them than waste them?

So in the moment when I was handwriting this post in my notebook, I was listening to my favourite writing music, sipping on a delicious soy latte, making sure to really taste every flavour of it and doing this! The one thing that no matter how bad my day is or how sad I’m feeling, it completes me. Writing.

It’s the one thing that I enjoy no matter what, and I’m making sure that I enjoy it a little extra these days, just because the wonderful and serviceminded barista that served me, reminded me that I’ve earned the right to do so!

I hope gratitude got through to him, not only in my tip and words, but also through my eyes and smile.

Enjoy the small moments! They are your life!

Enjoy yourself!