The Word is GROWTH!

After a lot of pondering and thinking about how I want the upcoming year to be, and what I want to focus on, it became quite clear that there was one thing that was very present in all of them, and that is personal growth.

I have a lot of ambitions and things that I want to accomplish in the near future. And I think that all of our experiences while on the road to our goals are paths of growth. Some happen unintentionally and some we search for. I know I’ve done my fair share of intentional personal growth over the last year and a half, and I’ve learned so much. Now I want to take it even further.

I want to dive deeper, focus harder and step out of the comfort zone even more often.

I turned 30 yesterday, and a couple of days ago I wrote about how I set a word for the year that I was 29. That word was EXPERIENCES. The word for 30 will be GROWTH.

Yesterday I started making a list of the things that I want to learn and do, and the places I would like to go. It is not done yet, but it’s getting there. It’s one that I will put up somewhere in my apartment where I will see it often, so that I won’t lose my focus.

At this very moment, I’d like to keep the list to myself. This is one that I’ve made just for me, but I will tell you more about it at a later time.

Even though I’m not sharing the details of this list quite yet, I can still promise you that I’m going to bring you guys along for the ride of this year. And this right here; my very own spot online is a very big part of it all.

Let’s go on some new adventures together! I have a feeling that this year is going to be a very important and interesting one ☺️

This is the Hurt that I’m Feeling

I didn’t plan on going into my thirties with a broken heart, but here I am. Life takes twists and turns all of the time, and sometimes they hurt. And no matter how right it is, it’s still painful.

I’m turning 30 tomorrow, and I’m not one to worry about age. I don’t really care about that number to be honest. What I care about is where I’m at this very moment. And right now that place is a bit unclear.

On my last birthday, someone very dear to me asked me to define my upcoming year as 29 with one word. The word I chose was “Experiences”. And it turned out that I chose my word well.

My year as 29 was filled with interesting and new experiences.

I stepped out of my comfort zone a lot.

I travelled to new places, and familiar places.

I learned new things, and found new passions.

I met some wonderful people, some I got to know really well. Some I had to say goodbye to.

I fell in love, and I got my heart broken. Not intentionally by that person, but sometimes love just doesn’t work out the way that we want to. And if there’s one thing that will always be the truth, it is that we can’t control who we love, or how much we love them. And every time we go through that, it’s another experience as well. And what I might be most grateful for right now, is the falling. To get to experience to fall completely in love with someone again, no matter how painful it turned out, it was a wonderful reminder. I got to feel something that I wasn’t sure was even possible anymore. And for that I’m utterly and completely grateful! And in time when the healing really sets in, I will be able to cherish that even more than I do right now.

This is the hurt that I’m feeling, but I am not the pain.

This will take time, but that doesn’t mean that time have to stand still.

This is where I’m broken, but the cracks are where the sun will shine through.

For a time now, the hurting and the healing will walk hand in hand, supporting each other when it’s needed. And although a broken heart is a clear sign of an ending, it is also the promise of new beginnings.

I’m going into my thirties with a chapter that has no beginning yet. And it’s time I start to write it. And I think I’m going to start with one word. I have not chosen my word for the next year yet, but I will in time for tomorrow.