I’m going to be a proper nervous wreck and you’re all invited to witness it! How about that?!
A good while ago (way too long actually) I did a post about how I wanted to do slam poetry on stage in the near future. That didn’t happen, and I’m thinking it’s about time that I do something about that!
It’s been way too long since I’ve been to Slam! night at CaféTeatret in Oslo (they host it once every month), but yesterday I went together with Kirsti, Torje and Kaya and they asked me if I was going to get up on stage this time around. The pressure was on, and a part of me really wanted to, while another part of me was looking for a big black hole to sink into just thinking about it. Because here’s the thing; I have a weird thing about being on stage with a microphone. I can easily get up on a stage and do a whole thing about something work related, or talk about a subject that I’m passionate about. I can do it without breaking a sweat. But getting up in front of people to present my own work is a whole different story!
Not only do I break out all of the sweats, but I black out! I’m not even kidding! It’s not that I choke, but I just can’t remember my own performance afterwards. It happened both in my dad’s 50th birthday party, and in my sister’s 40th birthday party. Both times I wrote a personal poem, both times I got up in front of a lot of faces and shared my writing, and both times is just as much a black hole lost from my memory. From what I’ve been told both performances were really good, and they loved the poems, but for some reason my brain just won’t let me participate in the party! I remember getting up, THEN NOTHING, and then I come back when they’re applauding.
What kind of weird defence mechanism is that?
But, as you guys know, I’m all about getting out of my comfort zone and grow, and this is the perfect opportunity to do just that. So I promised my friends that March 7th will be the day where I get up on that stage and share my own writing!
I will be filming it and post it to YouTube if I’m happy with the result, but if you want to see it live and in all it’s awkwardly nervous gloriousness, then you can follow me on Instagram, because I will be livestreaming it there!
So why am I posting this here if I’m so freaking nervous about it? Because as soon as this post goes live for everyone to see, then I really have to do it! No turning back! And I encourage you to hold me to it!
So, will I see you there?